emotionally drained
At 2007-06-11 on 11:32 p.m.
wow-what a week-i dont even know what to write if anything,i am back home after one of the most upsetting weeks ever in my life! all i can say over and over is my poor aunt jean...we did have a viewing and a service but she has yet been laid to rest-the fucker who did this to her still has all the rights and control over her body even though he is still in jail-he controlled her when she was alive and he is still able to do it when she is dead and TRUST ME all of her family memembers and the few secret friends she had did everything we could to lay her to rest and there is a ton i could tell but i just cant get into it yet-it hurts so bad and saying we're mad as hell does not do justice-doesnt even come close...Murderer goes to court on Wednesday for his first hearing and i PRAY they dont release him...the detectives promise us that he wont but this is the man who always gets away with everything and its sickning to hear all of his million different stories of what happened to my aunt and the 911 call-OMG-so fake-when you have detectives telling you how fake it is and they have never heard his voice-get this-when he called 911 and they told him to get her out of the pool-all he kept screaming was that she was drunk and dead and that he wasnt strong enough to get her out-wtf-the pool isnt that big or deep and he is bigger then my aunt and he doesnt even try to get her out cause she isnt strong enough? everybody i know would automatically jump in the pool and try to pull your spouse out and save them and his clothes werent even wet when the police and ems got there...he told the ems that he just got home and found her floating in the pool-he told others that he was home eating a sandwhich,he told my husband that he watched her get into the pool and then went back inside to eat something and then checked on her about an hour later and found her drunk and dead,he told other police that he was inside cooking them something to eat and made my aunt a plate and went to get her and because they had argued that night she said she wasnt hungry-if you even knew this man a bit-everyone knows this man has never cooked-he made my aunt wait on him hand and foot ALWAYS and guess what-there wasnt a dirty dish anywhere or any food anywhere and the tv report said that she was drinking champagne out by the pool-that was another story that he told-guess where the champagne was-in the fridge-no wine glass was found by the pool it was on his nightstand and the 3 bottles of wine was up under the cabinet-not saying one bit she wasnt drinking-thats a fact-thats how she got thru his abuse-the nes said my aunt was skinny dipping-first off it was her pool so what if she was-secondly i cant tell you how many times he ripped her clothes off and either threw her in the pool or locked her outside naked to sleep during the night-how many times he has broken her nose by smashing it on the concret by the pool,how he broke her finger and crushed her nail when he slammed her in the closet and locked her in there-i can go on and on...i wont even get into the personal sick perverted things he did to her or made her do to others while he watched and the letters we found with his sexual drawings to his "beloved wife"...and how crappy of a job the police did to secure the home-it wasnt considered a crime scene it was/is just a drunk woman who drowned in her pool...let me tell you what we found in the washing machine-wet towels that looked like they were splashed with bleach and a pair of his shorts that looked to have blood spots all on them,this happened a week ago yesterday and they were suppose to go get them out of the washing machine today...im telling ya you dont have a clue what all has happened since she died and we probably wont ever know for sure and he always told my aunt that he would drown her in the pool in a way that he would get off-bingooo-and now my poor beautiful aunt jean is lying in the fridge at the funeral home-we do have 2 wonderful detectives working on the case and they know he did it one way or another-the lady detective called late saturday night and asked if my aunt had any stomach problems that crystal and teresa knew of and they didnt-the detective coulndt go into detail but she made it sound like there was a lot of internal bleeding and other stuff interesting things showing up-we so cant wait for that autopsy results....my aunt looked soooo damn old-it was not my beautiful aunt jean anymore and she had a cut on her lip and a bruised chin and her nose was crooked-crystal was crying over and over whats wrong with her nose-it makes me sick to think of what she looked like and went thru and having to sit by all the grandkids and watch the lil ones cry their eyes out because their nanny died-ughhhhhh
and you gotta hear something else that happened that day-teresa was up there saying goodbye to her mom and the fucker funeral guy who was creepy as hell and kept flirting with my cousin terri-well he went up to teresa and tapped on his watch-like rushing her-she yelled "im having my last fucking moment with my mom" her daughter kayleigh was with her and saw him do it several times...i seriously cant tell you what all happened last week-you wouldnt believe it-unreal-and it aint over-she's gone but we're all going to fight for justice! and they played "candle in the wind" and it was so appropiate-almost too much-that song could of been written for my aunt jean...
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT THRU THIS AND I'LL PROBABLY NEED IT FOR AWHILE!!
On another note-my child made it to Alaska and he is loving it-I havent been able to talk to him since he has been gone and i've been gone but he did call his dad and he did post to me on myspace :*) i miss my boy but now i dont like my family not being together or close by but im so happy he is getting to live out his dream!!